I know this is a bit tough to cover, but I am still trying to figure out how to make my own list of things to do, so don’t hesitate to leave a comment below.
If you want to know what to do, you have to know what to do.
I don’t know what I’m going to do with my life. I don’t know what I’m going to do next. And it’s a bit scary.
As we were saying, I’m not going to do anything to get better at it. I just want my life back.
For those of you who are curious about the “what to do” question, you can find many things to do on the internet, but I think it may be helpful to understand what your life could look like if you were to do something that has been put in your hands. The most important thing to know is that your life is going to change in ways that you cannot control, and you will probably be surprised how much your life might change, but you will have time to adjust to it.
The way I see it, after being a victim of a deadly attack in the woods, I had a choice to take some of the memories of the attack with me. I could have been stuck on a hill for the rest of my days and never know it was there or if I could have escaped. Or I could have chosen the other path and ended up in a field of dead trees.
I think the point is that you have the power to change who you are. If you can take what happened and use that strength to empower yourself, to overcome whatever fears or traumas you may have, then that is empowering.
Another way to look at it is that you are capable of being a person again. At least if you don’t want to, which is a whole other debate. You may still be stuck on your hill, but if you can take what happened and use those memories to empower yourself (or if you can use those memories to empower someone else you care about that has similar struggles), that’s empowering.
You can use those memories to turn yourself into a person again, or you can create a persona that gives you the power to empower yourself again by creating a life that is more than that. Or you can create a persona that gives you the power to take actions that lead to those actions and turn yourself into a person again. Or you can create a persona that gives you the power to take actions that lead to actions that lead to actions that lead to actions.
The problem is that when you turn yourself into a person again, you turn yourself into someone else. There is a real difference between changing your personality and changing your identity. Identity does not change. Instead of being a person that can do things that require you to be a person, you become a person who can do things that require you to be a different person.